It is only six more days now until I ship for basic and I am very excited for what is to come! I know I am physically and mentally fit to take care of myself and to be just fine but I do hope no complications arise that should put my career in danger. My family and friends are all very excited for me as well and knowing that they support me and want me to do well makes me feel like I just cannot let them down! In a weird way I feel like I’m doing this for them, for the people I care about I’m off to go do my thing, and that thought is nice since the whole idea of service to the nation is a selfless one! I’m not saying that I am a hero, I’m especially no hero yet, but it is nice to feel like I am doing something good for my loved ones. Of course I want to do this for myself, don’t get the wrong idea or anything! It’s just part of the benefits that comes with the line of work if you ask me.
I have only been back in my own town for five days now but there has been a lot that has happened since I returned from the wonderful time I had with my girlfriend! My family and I have been tight and seeing one another almost every day! One of my very good friends came down from Gainesville and we got to hang out for a little bit to see one another before I left. I stopped by the station to hang out with my sergeants and they were all very happy to see me off. I’m glad that I was able to become a part of the Army with these people because instead of just sending me back home to wait half a year they took me under their wing and trained me on their own time. I don’t know where I would be right now if it was not for them and I sure know I would not feel as confident as I do now if they had just never contacted me again after I signed my contract.
I have been packing and squaring things away before I am to disappear for about three months! I have been organizing my room for the long haul and taking care of the memories that I have made prior to all this so that I can fondly and easily look back at them. I’ve done some things here and there online for my absence and I have also been updating my Facebook’s timeline with some neat parts of my life for memory’s sake. I know I probably do not say this enough but I love Facebook (or, at least, my Facebook) because it is a very amazing tool for keeping in touch with the people that I care about the most in this world. All of my friends have been talking to me and we have been laughing and bonding over the time we had together and it is just good to see that they still consider me a great friend! I don’t mean to use “the time we had together” in a way to make it sound like we won’t get more time to be with one another, I am just saying that it is good to see them still care about me as I care about them even though I have been very busy with getting my life together!  A lot of my friends expressed to me that they cannot believe that I am off to go do what it is that I am going to go do. They tell me that they worry about me and that they want me to be safe, they say that we’re complete opposites or that I’m crazy but that they are really proud of me to be doing what it is I am going to be doing. I tell them everything is going to be all right, that they shouldn’t worry about me, but I know words are just words and people will worry if they want to! My friends and family are the best and, I’m sorry, but you just could not ask for any better than these people to have in your life.
If someone were to ask me what it was that I was going to miss the most during my time in the service then I would tell them that it will be everything. I’ll miss my dog, my family and friends; I’ll miss my hometown and all of the familiar places that I have come to know as I grew up in the wonderful and amazing place of Miami. I’ll miss the insane amounts of time I could be spending with my girlfriend and I’ll miss all of the ways her and I could just casually be living life by one another’s side. I’ll miss the laughs with my friends and all the parties and get-togethers that I will not be able to be a part of. It is everything that I am going to miss but it is all of that which gives me the inspiration to do what needs to be done! Is that paradoxical? I suppose it could be in some light but it at least makes sense to me!
Is there anything more left to say in this entry about any of what I spoke about? There probably is but it sure is not coming to mind right now how to put it down into text to share with you all! I just hope that you know, you who are reading this who knows me as a person, that I care about you and that you are good to me and that I would be there by your side helping you through your tough times if I could be. The future is unknown to all of us but I learned a very long time ago that your life is your destiny and your destiny is in your hands. You hold the controller to your life, the world in your palm and the universe in your heart. You can go do whatever it is you want to do and you do not need to listen to anybody but yourself. Do what makes you happy because you only live once and you have got to live it up enough for the both of us!
